It's been awhile

Hello again everyone!

I know it's been awhile since I last posted anything, but I was going through a lot and the anxiety I had prevented me from doing the things I love.

Lately, it seems like the end of times are right around the corner (that's scary) but also I lost hope in humanity.

There's so much that it makes it so hard for me to even type out all of the thoughts swirling around in my head.

After George Floyd was murdered the black community and most of the world came together to speak out against racial injustices, police brutality, systemic racism, and just racism in general. This is such a hard pill for so many to swallow because it has been festering beneath a bandaid for so long. The bandaid was ripped off for everyone to see how the wound never truly healed but just festered. It's hard to look at and even harder to know where to start to begin true healing. Some say awareness/knowledge, some say reform, some say defunding the police, others say let's put the bandaid back on.

At the end of the day we are all human. I believe we must lead with love and understanding and even though someones experiences are not our own we can still acknowledge they are still experiences being felt. Even though we see the world differently than others I know we can find a common ground. All I know is putting a bandaid on the issue will only make things worse in the long run.

This is the first time in a long time that my social life is more demanding than my work life and this has been tough for me. Now, I am lucky that the only thing I have to worry about is the storm inside me as the world seems to crumble around me, and I don't have to worry about having a roof over my head or food in my stomach. At the end of the day I know I am truly blessed.

I needed to write this post to get some thoughts out of my head finally so I can begin writing again. Sometimes I get so caught in my mind that it's hard for me to outwardly express what I am going through or what's on my mind. There's just so much and it's really hard to articulate to be honest.

I am on a journey of self love at the same time, so while I am trying to fight for myself and my fellow brother and sisters around me, I am also fighting myself. There has been an abnormal amount of conflict in my life and I don't deal with conflict too well. 😅

I would like to start writing about some of the storms I have had to face lately, so you may see more post like this. Thank you for taking the time to read my blog and I can't wait to see where our adventures take us.

Stay safe. Stay sane. Stay hopeful.